I did not know how hard it would be to come home and leave her there.
Or that when I would hear a baby cry in Walmart that sounded so much like her it would make me feel so sad or that every time I smell baby lotion I would think of how she smelled.I have looked at her pictures and videos so much I know them all by heart.When I left Russia I feel like I left half of my heart there and I am counting down the days until we can be together again.
Yes. It just plain sucks, and there isn't anything that makes it not. You will however survive this, we all somehow do because we have to. They need us. And you can do it!
ReplyDeleteIt's like giving birth, when it's all over you will only have sweet memories. It sucks. But it's all part of the process. Once you get your court date it will go so fast! Hang in there:)
ReplyDeleteI remember those times... i watched the videos over and over again. I had her picture on the nightstand near our bed so every time I woke up that's the first thing i saw. I know it's hard I have been there but know that "This too shall pass" and you will hold her in your arms again. I tried to keep my self busy with things otherwise my mind would start wonder again....I know its tough but you will make it through.
ReplyDeleteAll of us who have been there and now again understand your heart.Maybe will will have court around the same time. We are thinking probably towards the end of April beginning of May for us.Sometimes shopping therapy helps!
ReplyDeleteIt is SO tough. I just kept busy with projects to prepare fir her arrival. Then, I did things that I knew I wouldn't do fir a while. Massage, girls night out, those things.
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